Day 1

Sorry about not posting these, I've been really busy! Here's the day before yesterday.

Day 1: What a day! So much happened and I'm so tired ughhh

Getting on the plane in San Fran with Sara and saying goodbye to my family was hard, and I'm still feeling that awkward "I'm ready to go home" feeling that you get when you homestay with people you've never met before in your life. It's been fun with my host family so far, but it's just so awkward being Japanese and doing this because you don't want to be a burden to anyone and consequentially are willing to feel uncomfortable and out of place. I hate this feeling. I keep on catching myself thinking, don't worry you're going home tomorrow. Then I realize im really not going home tomorrow. Or the next day. Or the next day. Or any time soon for a really long time. That's what's scaring me. But I guess right now all I can do is do what they ask. I'm so tired and they're asking me to wake up at 6:30 tomorrow, but I really think that I deserve some rest from everything that's happened today. I can't believe that I'm really doing it!

I love my family's house, so cozy and small, but I just hate making people do things for me so i feel really bad. I'm just ready to find something to get my mind off of all this, an incentive for every day. I just can't wait to sleep! Going to universal studios Japan tomorrow！！ see yah all later ❤

Today's prayer: thank you God for protecting us on our flight here, and I thank you for keeping us in your hands. I pray that you help me see that you already have a plan set and that with you I can do anything if I have faith. Thank you for being so powerful, awesome, and loving, and I pray that you pull me through what I admit to be homesickness. Thank you, I love you!