Day 6!

Day 6: 

So in the morning I didn't feel really well... I realized that everytime I wake up I feel depressed and homesick again. I mean once I start doing something I forget about it but it always happens I'm not really doing anything. I really hate this feeling, and I'm excited for school to start so I have something to distract me all day. This is the only situation ever in my life that I'm happy I have school on Saturday. I know if I'm in my room alone ill get depressed. The only time I ever go to my room is when I go to sleep or when I need to get something. I try to avoid going to my room. I woke up late cause I was up really late writing my blog post from yesterday, and i started having this feeling of homesick that was super small but wouldnt go away. when I got downstairs my host dad had already left for work. I ate breakfast and did my quiet time, but around that time I started thinking about home a lot and I wasn't feeling well. I talked jokingly with my family about doing bad things so I could go home, but I don't really know if it was actually a joke... 

So we pretty much just hung around all morning, and I got to talk to my dad and get other important things sorted out. Tomorrow I'm going to open my own Japanese bank account! It's gonna be awesome~ we didn't do anything until I left to go to church at around 10:45 :)

So I've been trying to get used to going places by public transport, and today my host mom came with me so I didn't have to worry a whole bunch and so I could Learn how to get to church. Apparently the location changes cause they rent spaces so ill have to find out where next time is this week. Getting to today's location is pretty simple and I think id be able to do it on my own next time. I only have to Change trains once! As we went I wrote all the instructions down, so I should be able to do it on my own next time. Once I got to the meeting place that was posted on the jesus LifeHouse Osaka website (meet at nagahoribashi exit 6) there were two girls with Mario hats that greeted me and took me to the church location. When I got there, I couldn't believe my eyes! So many Japanese and American people mingling was a really weird sight for me. I met a lot of really cool people from everywhere, and it was awesome to find a super energetic and young church. I'm definitely glad i went today! There worship is awesome and flawless and so uplifting, and their energy is super infectious. Such a welcoming church! After the first worship service we at lunch, and then I stayed for the second service which featured Jon pritikin, the guy who can roll frying pans and bends metal rods with his teeth. It was really cool, ad there were even more people there than before. Pretty crazy. His message was really powerful, and I loved hearing his life story. After that I had to go because my host mom came to pick me up but I said bye to a few people and then hurried back to the station. The best part of my day was meeting a guy named Matthew from Dallas Texas!!! I was so surprised that someone from Dallas would Be here! He said that he's been praying for another Texan, and now it here! I don't know if it was much of a prayer but he was really happy. And I like him a lot, he seems like an awesome guy. We r gonna hang out later this week I think. Awesome! Jesus LifeHouse Osaka! I'm really glad I went. The worship was really good, Jon and Luke(the pastor)'s speaking were very good. I'm so happy about finding a good Church! 

Once I got home I got really talkative and helped make dinner kinda. It was fun. I talked a lot with my family, and I didn't think about home. But still that little annoying feeling of longing still lingered. Even now. What i realized while sitting at the table is that even though America is more comfortable for me, when I go home I'm gonna wish I'm gonna be Here in Japan. I'm not homesick because I hate Japan, it's because I love Japan and love my family so being without them feels really weird. But school is finally starting so I should be ok soon! I'm missing home but I can do this! Gotta keep my head up! I Can do this!!!

At 10 I got to Skype with my family~ I'm so happy I got to see them! I didn't have any sad feelings cause I was so happy to see them. I don't want to be sad when I see them. I have to savor my time here in Japan! And I can't do that if I'm sad all the times. I got to introduce my family and stuff, my house, etc. it was a really good talk. I'm so happy about today, everything went so much better than I expected :) 

Tomorrow is my first day of school! Gotta go to be so I can be awake in the morning! Yay 5 min walk <3 

Today's prayer: thank you God for helping me know that you have a great and awesome plan. I thank you that I can put anything before you and you will lift those burdens. I thank you for friends who make life and living so much easier... I thank you for fellow Christians! I thank you for always being there for me, Ann I hope I can do some crazy awesome stiff for you in Jesus named America. :D I love you God! I'm interested in what's in store'